Memories of Scott
reported by Paul Ivory on 8/04/00  

My thoughts about Scott Kinkele
By Paul Ivory
Marathon A Month Athletes (MAMA) member
3 August 2000

 

Learning of Scott’s untimely death left me in a state of disbelief, shocked, saddened, enraged, depressed, frustrated, reminiscent. I run out of words to express my feelings. I am angered at the low-life punks who needlessly took Scott’s life. So many things I would like to do to them, but none of them would bring back Scott. Its in God’s hands now and those punks will not escape their judgment and punishment.

As I think about what Scott is doing right now, my reminiscing and spiritual teachings suggest that he has been taken home to his Heavenly Home where God may have had a need for him now to help in the spirit world. When we see him there I know he will greet us with a smile and a hug and he’ll be offering us encouragement and consoling us rather than the other way around.

On the other hand, if God did not call Scott home early, then at least we know Scott was welcomed home to loving family and friends who he knew in this earth life and in the spirit world before he came here. I believe our savior Jesus Christ has already welcomed Scott and helped him through any transition that was needed. Scott is so adaptable that his concern will not be for himself, but for those loved ones he left behind. Scott will probably even be feeling sorry for the fate that lies ahead for those who did this to him, because their fate will be horrible indeed.

My only acquaintance with Scott has been on the MAMA trail runs we all enjoy so much. He was so easy to enjoy, so true to his ideals, a real friend to anyone who needed encouragement. Although his athletic fitness would have allowed him to do all the runs and just go out and kick butt, he was happy to help pace many of us through parts of the runs we did, and then when it was time he could take off and leave miles of distance between us.

When I have tried to explain who Scott was to my friends I used phrases like,
- “He was the young good looking Navy officer who used to drive up here from San Antonio to run with our MAMA group”.
- “He was always bubbling over with smiles and all that fun stuff”.
- “He was really in awesome condition, you could tell he worked out by his strong upper body with lots of muscle definition”.
- “He ran my butt off at Grasslands on the first 10 mile loop and he was just pacing us”.

I’m going to keep this short, because I am so frustrated by the event of his death that I know I don’t really think very clearly to express myself. I have a sickening feeling in my stomach as I ponder about this sad tragedy. On one hand I want to reach out in anger and retribution, and on the other I know that “Judgment is mine and mine alone, thus saith the Lord”. I need to find a way to internalize and celebrate the good that Scott represented and do a better job of the same. The pictures I have of Scott will forever bring back fond feelings of the wonderful man and friend that he was and is.

Run4Fun in Heaven, Scott,
Paul Ivory
MAMA Friend

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